Holy fuck. It was a while ago. Haha. Can't say much has happened though. Only that my computer has really given up on me and filed for a divorce. I might divorce before though cos I'm calling the support number today again. Not that I think they can help me more this time but maybe I have the strenth to tell them that the computer is really broken and that I can't fix it on my own. They need to have a look at it to see what's wrong. If I can make them understand that I should get a nobel prize =) (Yeah, it is that bad) Talking about not having a brain.. 8-)

I'm sitting in school cos I've got nothing better to do. That's kinda sad actually. And I don't know what's happening this weekend either, only that I'm going home on Sunday. So hopefully there will be something going on tonight or tomorrow or I'll have to party on my own ;) Haha! (Which is even sadder to be honest)

Cissi!! I miss you muchness right now. It's gonna be so nice to go home and have a proper talk about stuff. Dontcha think? Ah well.. maybe it's time to say goodbye eh.. end this blog anyway. Take care. Loves you <3

Right now I can't wait to go home. I so hate this. And yeah it's probably my fault, I'm way too nice. I should have said what was on my mind from the start. So I only have myself to blame for not doing that. But how fun is it to hurt someone you care about? Especially when you're doing it on purpose and you know the person will get hurt? It sucks I'm telling you! I've been there too many times already, next time I won't go this far. Or it won't be a next time, more like it. I'm just gonna live and forget about the rest.

Hahahaha.. Ohyeah we had fun =) Party party!!

Yeah! The brevbärare (:P) has become our friend again!! =) Wijoo! BUT.. if he doesn't deliver our concert tickets soon I might have to change my mind :P
Finally we got the dvd today.. hehe ;) It's great!


It wasn’t meant to feel like this

I want the new Dvd now!! (Igår helst =P) But yeah I just wish it will be here by tomorrow. Movienight! Or movieday hehe ;) It's my sisters birthday tomorrow. Wahey!! 22 baby ;)

Another weekend has gone by. I guess time goes fast when you have fun.
Let's see, Friday me and Anna were in town shopping since we didn't have any lessons. We also decided to go to Luleå some day cos this town is so extremly small. Friday night I was working at Traversen. Anna, Pia and Fredrik were there drinking :P
Yesterday me and Anna went to watch Hockey. It was a chaos game as usual when I'm there and Skellefteå AIK lost to Färjestad with 5-1. But since I don't support any of the teams I didn't really care. I was working at Traversen yesterday as well. It was fun both of the nights but it was more people there on the Friday. Oh and I got lift home yesterday :P It was nice.
Sooo today I won't do anything cos I'm so tired. Well I guess going to coop and stuff but nothing too heavy.
So yeah.. XxXx

Thoughts are taking over me

If I don't tell you now?

Life goes on just the way it did before. I'm in the same situation as I was a while ago. I can't believe myself. Guess I'm just the unlucky one or something. It just seems like no one understands me. If you only knew how hard it is for me.. Ah well, as I said, life goes on. I'm not gonna make the same mistake twice, it's just not me.

You're like a storm against the window.
Follow me around just like a shadow.
I’ll swim a never-ending ocean,
until you bring back your devotion.

It’s like I live a thousand lifetimes.
Still looking for the one that feels right.
See, moving on just isn’t working;
you lit the fire that I’m burning.

And all I can do is protect it,
A lie for the sake of my pride.
While all the others had me thinking,
we could be more than just amazing.

I guess I’m holding on to my faith.
A silent hope I’m heading your way.
And crawling over is so tempting;
We could be more than just amazing.

Miss my Bitch more than ever

There's no holding back and there's no letting go.

Feels like I haven't been writing here for a while. Today it's Sunday again (booh)
My birthday party was the bestest ever ;) Haven't had that much fun or been that drunk since looong time ago =)




I will never be with anybody else, If I can't have you

Today has been a nice day. One lesson and then we watched 4 episodes of O.C =) Was nice, even though I couldn't sit still for long. I'm going to Traversen soon to work. I'm so happy I don't have to work on Friday =) Friday is gonna be paaaarty =D

Hold On, Little Girl
Show Me What He's Done To You
Stand Up, Little Girl
A Broken Heart Can't Be That Bad

When It's Through, It's Through
Fate Could Twist The Both Of You
So Come On Baby, Come On Over
Let Me Be The One To Show You


yeah you're right..

Fuck this
I guess it's time to start it all over again.

Waheey!
I passed both my exams ;) Lovely. Which means early christmas break for me, mwahaha!
I think Bella should come home so I can kindly tell her to party with me tonight.

Well I passed one exam. (If I didn't write that before) but I still don't know about the Organisation. I'm hoping for the best.
Anna is going home tomorrow for the weekend. Which leaves me with a boring weekend without private jokes =P haha.. naah I'm sure I can find something fun to do =)

Right now I'm waiting for something fun to start on TV or waiting for Anna to finish her blog so I can read it. (she told me I had to)
Oh and to something totally different. I bought phösar sunglasses when I was in Linköping.

over and out

My darling.. who knew?
Who knew things could change so fast. Without any of us noticing or wanting the change. Is it too late to go back to the way things used to be? I wish I could still call you a friend..

When you can't speak and you know what it's like to be lonely
Don't even bother to phone me, cos I'll be alright in the end
It's not that you're breaking my heart
I'm just losing a friend..

Today has been one of those days. Too bad. I'm so tried, gonna sleep early.

Back in Skellefteå
Yeah I came home yesterday. It's nice to be back but it was nice to go home and visit as well.
Marie - Nice with a movie after all =)
Cissi - Meet you halfway? =) Don't get caught in the bushes.

I hate
things that has anything to do with planes, snow, storms or airports. I'm stuck at Arlanda and has been for a while and will probably be for another hour or so.

Pissed off with the weather!!

Doing my best
And if that's not good enough.. there's nothing else I can do. I already know I'm not good with those kinda things, but really, I'm trying.

I can't face all my fears at once. I need to take it step by step. But I'm on my way.

I think it's about time that Anna wakes up now. She's meant to be the morning person and I'm not! So how come I always wake up before her? :S I don't get it.. Hmm..
Going to school at 1 o'clock to start with the new courses. I hope they're funnier than the last ones.

Haha I'm so extremly bored that I don't know where to turn. Oh oh Anna wants me to come to her room. I just saw the most annoying avatar ever.
However, today was nice. Haven't done that much though so I haven't got anything fun to write.
Apart from "ever yet" that is :P Haha funniest quote ever!!

Playing in the snow
Me and Anna has just been outside playing in the snow for a while. It was sooo much fun. But I'm quite happy that no one saw us =)
I'm totally bored now though. Got absolutely nothing to do. Well I know I can always think of something to do, but still.
Oh oh I'm soon going home. Wohoo can't wait to see all my darlings again! =)

I still don't like Sundays.

Strong demands
My plan was not to write anything in my blog today, don't ask why. But then all of a sudden strong demands from the other room made it impossible for me to refuse to write a poem or two.
Today has been a whole lot of fun. Cleaning, washing clothes and food shopping. It feels like we're having celebrity guests or something (one can only dream)

Well back to tonight (or maybe not back cos I never started telling it) however, halloween party (Traversen) and before that pre-party at some networkers house. Gonna be fun even tho I'm not in a great party mood.

Yesterday was wrong. Today is better though. Didn't miss that much by not being there, thank god.
Hmm only cos I wasn't gonna write anything I end up writing a novel instead.

Ohyeah a poem with a rhyme

I'm standing on the edge of time
I've walked away when love was mine
Caught up in a world of uphill climbing
The tears are in my mind
And nothing is rhyming

Atleast the word rhyming is there =)

Can't be bothered to translate this into english. for those who doesn't understand, live with it, you never will.

(x) snott den här listan från nån
(x) rökt en cigarett
( ) testat droger
(x) varit full
(x) pussat någon av samma kön
(x) varit kär
(x) blivit dumpad
(x) dumpat någon
( ) varit i knytnävsslagsmål
( ) rymt hemifrån
(x) haft/har känslor för någon som inte känt samma sak
(almost) blivit arresterad
(x) hånglat med en främling
(x) ljugit för en kompis
(x) skolkat
(x) flugit
(x) spytt i en bar
( ) sett en del av dig själv brinna
(x) älskar eller saknar någon just nu
(x) legat på rygg och sett molnen flyga förbi
(x) gjort en snöängel
(x) hoppat i en vattenpöl
(x) hoppat i en lövhög
(x) åkt släde
(x) fuskat när du spelat spel
(x) varit ensam
(x) somnat i skolan/på jobbet
( ) använt ett falskt id
(x) tittat på en solnedgång
( ) varit med i en jordbävning
(x) rört en levande orm
(x) blivit kittlad
( ) blivit rånad
(x) blivit missförstådd
( ) tagit hand om en hare
(x) vunnit en tävling
(x) gått mot rött
( ) blivit avstängd från skolan
( ) varit i en bilolycka
( ) dansat i månljus
(x) hatat ditt utseende
( ) varit vittne till ett brott
(x) ifrågasatt ditt hjärta
(x) varit vilse
(x) varit på andra sidan landet
(x) simmat i havet
(x) känt som om du håller på att dö
(x) gråtit dig själv till sömns
(x) sjungt karaoke
(x) busringt
(x) fångat en snöflinga på tungan
(x) dansat i regn
( ) tittat på solnedgången tillsammans med någon du bryr dig om
(x) blåst bubblor
( ) gjort upp eld på en strand
( ) förstört en fest
(x) fått en önskan inslagen
(x) burit pärlor
( )hoppat från en bro
( ) sagt till en främling att du älskar honom/henne
( )kysst en spegel
(x) sjungit i duschen
(x) burit en svart klänning
(x)limmat fast din hand i något
( )fastnat med tungan i metall
( ) varit en cheerleader
(x)suttit på ett tak
(x) skrikit så att du inte fått luft
(x) pratat i telefon i mer än sex timmar
(x) stannat uppe hela natten
(x) plockat och ätit ett äpple direkt från trädet
(x) klättrat i träd
(x) haft en träkoja
( ) är rädd för att titta på skräckfilm ensam
( ) tror på spöken
( ) blivit puttad i en pool med kläderna på
(x) blivit tillsagd av en främling att du är het
( ) fångat en fjäril
(x) skrattat så mycket att du grät
(x) gråtit så mycket att du skrattade
(x) fuskat på ett prov
(x) sovit naken

Wow I've done quite alot :P and some things I'm not very proud of. Ah well..
Had the second and last exam today. Niiice ;)

Ingen kan bli älskad i oändlighet

Du är ändå nummer två ikväll

Exam
I've never felt so confident before an exam as I do now. It feels great =) I hope "all this" studying will pay off tomorrow! =)
Anyway partying this weekend. I haven't been out to meet people in ages. Gonna be nice =)

Fear
It just won't go away.

Something special
That's what I thought anyway. I thought it was different from what I once knew. I guess I was wrong. I'm not good at those kinda things. And most of the time I don't know what I want, but atleast I know what I don't want. I don't want history repeating. Then I rather walk away with a broken heart.

Oh Baby won't you listen to what I've got to say
Oh baby don’t you let me throw it all away

I tried to do my best to do the best I could
I had to give my all, it's what I had to do
I'd do it all again and that's the honest truth
I did it for you

Exam and more studying
I think the exam went ok. I hope so anyway, I really can't talk all that studying again. Well I've got a new exam on friday so I've got more studying to do, waheey? Or maybe not. I'm tired, of most of the things right now.

I was happy goddammit!! Stop ruining my life!!

Time for the exam.
Well in an hour anyway.. Keep your fingers crossed for me.

Snow
Yeah the snow is all around. The last day before the exam now, feels like I understand. Really great feeling.

Studying even more today. It's really getting too boring, but at the same time it feels like I actually understand some things =) *happy* Later on I'm gonna take a break from the studies and do some things on my "overall". I need to put my name on it so that's probably what I'm gonna do today. I'm going more pink! Yesterday me and Anna put some glitter on them, it looks lovely =) Anyway, Can't stay on.

Take care xx

Feels like I've been studying most of the day today. But now I took a break and we're watching Idol 2006. Lovely =)
Gonna study when it's finished though.. booooring!!

tomorrow= organisation
sunday= organisation
monday= exam

Uuuh cold snow. This is the second time it's snowing, first time was in september sometime, however this time it stayed on the ground. Which means it's dead cold outside. I'm thinking about how I'm gonna survive going to school without freezing any bodyparts off. Hopefully I'll be fine. I just realized that I don't have tht many warm clothes, I mean I would survive a winter in Linköping but no way I will up here. It's already too cold and it's only October. *Help me someone?*

Anyways, going to school in a min or two. Or 10 more like it..
Bye Bye xx

hehe soon we're going to the meeting about becoming next years "phösare". For those who doesn't know what "phösare" are, live with it, you won't! I'm boooored right now. Hm maybe because I should study and I'm not. I don't know.
Ooh btw, no more lessons left before exams. Waheeey! Ok, then that's done.

Take care xx

Soo.. studying, studying and even more studying. Gaaaah! It's so incredibly boring that I can't find the words for it. Been to school and been into town to order some books. After that absolutely having no life at all, just reading that stupid fecking Organisation book. I even fell asleep at one stage cos I was obviously soo bored :S
Did I mention that I don't like readin? Esp not when I have to!

ah well.. more reading to do. Cya xx

Now I'm gonna watch Tv ;) I'm almost missing my tv-show eh..
Anyway, today we've been to school and talked to Carro abit about the school work (yellow thingie) and yeah we've done loads of school work at home as well.

hmm.. exams are coming up. god help me? =)

so long suckers


Riight, later on now

I would give my life away
If it could only be the same

Guess I'm gonna sleep.. I'm soo tired and I'm up early in the morning as well.

This isn't goodbye
Even as I watch you leave
This isn't goodbye
I swear I won't cry
Even as tears fill my eyes
I swear I won't cry

When you apologize, no matter who was wrong..

If you could see me now

Let's see.. Today I've done nothing =D Naah we've been to school and done some school things with Carro. I'm counting down the days until we don't have those not to fun subjects anymore. 5 more lessons and 2 exams. Shouldn't be too bad. Nah, now I'm gonna study for the Organisation exam.
Cya xx

I hate sundays. Even though I've got no lessons tomorrow, there's something bad about sundays. Ah well.. Woke up at 1 o'clock. Very nice indeed. Haven't done that much so far, just washed some clothes and been to Coop. Gonna study now. Over and out.

I was tired when I woke up this morning, like I normally am.
Anyway, me and Anna went into town and suddenly we ended up at an instore signing (ok we waited 2 hours for it, but that's not the point). It was Agnes (the winner of Idol 2005 for those who doesn't know) who found her way to small little Skellefteå. So we thought: What the hell.. it might never happen again. We soon realized that people here don't have a clue how to queue for a signing *sigh*
After a lot of pushing we got our autographs and then we had a nice little chat with her "tourmanager".
Just got home now.

Tonight I'm working at Traversen, gonna be fun. I hope that today everyone I work with know that they are working. Would be nice :P
Well before I work I have time to be at Bella's party for exactly 1 hour and 15 minutes =)

Hmm yeah, I think that's it. Cya xx

Today we had the second last Organisation lesson. Hmm no comment.
Nothing happened today apart from that. Well me and Anna finally started with the SPCS Administration program. We've done everything in the yellow paper thing, but now we have registered our company and all that on the computer. Feels good.
Soon I'm gonna watch Idol and after that me, Anna and Pia are going to Traversen. Wohoo! Haven't been there in ages (not since last Saturday =S) Ah well..

So long suckers

Oook we went to Traversen but it was closed. They didn't have enough staff =P Ah well, after that we went to O'learys. It was ok.. but we didn't stay too long so now I'm home again (before midnight =O)

The birthday party yesterday was great =) Bella had a good time and her friends did too. I just got home from school now, had a lesson that wasn't worth going to. Didn't learn anything. It was just unnecessary talking. Later on we're going to some kind of meeting. It will probably be kinda boring but it feels like we should go anyway. So, what else? Exams are coming up soon, panic! It's just chaos all of it.

Aaah I'm soon going home. Well not going home forever, just visiting for a while =) It's gonna be so much fun!!

Today is Bella's birthday! =D Happy birthday dear roomie!
I just woke up, well I just got woken up 8-) Not nice! I'm normally really grumpy in the mornings, but I'm working on it.
Writing in english reminds me of Kilkenny. I soo wanna go back there. It might happen in another lifetime =P
Back to reality, it won't happen too much today. Just some baking of a cake and celebrating Bella. Might go to Traversen tonight, not sure yet. Well I'm gonna eat breakfast now to wake up a bit more. Catch ya later!

It's really time for Anna to wake up now. We need to go to coop ;) Alright, I'm so gonna wake her up now! With water if necessary =)

Today's..
..Clothes: Don't know yet
..Makeup: None yet
..Hairdo: Same as usual?
..Song: Follow through - Gavin Degraw
..Wanting: Christmas
..Missing: Cissi, Läcki and Malin
..Funniest: Nothing this far
..Most Boring: Waking up too early
..Hugs: Rickard
..Kisses: Always
..Tv-show: One Tree Hill
..Work Out: Gonna go shopping
..Oh No!: Organisation
..Quote: ""

Well I guess I'm kinda new at this. I just realized that this is a very good way of spending (or wasting) your time.. I guess I haven't decided yet.
Right now I don't have a clue what to write but yeah. I'm really looking forward to Scotland next year. Only like 6 months left *sigh* Ah well.. I'm gonna miss not going to Dublin though. It's still my second home like. But I'll live.
It's called Childline =D They better release some tickets soon so we can get better seats than last year.


Westlife - The Love Tour 2007
Glasgow (April 6th and 7th)
Aberdeen (April 10th and 11th)



I really gotta steal something from Anna's blog and translate it into my great english ;)

Today's..
..Clothes: Jeans
..Makeup: None
..Hairdo: Same as usual?
..Song: All or nothing - Westlife *Shiver*
..Wanting: My birthday!
..Missing: People at home..
..Funniest: Whipped Kian =D (Ohgod)
..Most Boring: That endless talk 8-)
..Hugs: Anna and Rickard
..Kisses: Always
..Tv-show: That hospital thing, ER?
..Work Out: Going to school and back =D
..Oh No!: Starting school at 8.15 (too early!)
..Quote: "Vad är det för skillnad på en myra?" - Anna

Another thing. I write english the same way as a speak it, if that's a good or bad thing I'm not sure.

If you can't get someone out of your head, maybe they're meant to be there?