Back to normal

And suddenly everything is like they used to be. They way they should be! =)

Inlove and projects

Just because I'm inlove..

Projectworks are really getting to me now. I'm so sick of it all. It was fun while we were doing it, but now? Writing an essay? 10 freaking pages? Give me a break will ya. Isn't it enough with a 20 min presentation? Apperently not. School ftw.

So tomorrow is the graduation party. I wonder who's gonna be here after the summer and who's leaving.. I guess we'll see.

I do need you

So what if I care?
So what if I still want you to be there?

I know I can't change your mind.
I just hope some day you'll realize what you've left behind.
This friendship has reached the end of the line.
Somehow, now I remember seeing the stop sign.
I don't know who to blame, but either way I'm sorry.
Whatever happens you know I'll be here for you, so don't you worry.
Nothing will ever be the same.
We don't talk as much and that's a shame.
You were the one to make me happy, but now you don't know what to say.
But that's okey because I've found someone else to make my day.

Sugar

Look into my eyes you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart, search your soul
When you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth trying for
You can't tell me it's not worth dying for
You know it's true
Everything I do, I do it for you

I said I'd use it =P

Give me a break

I'm not gonna do your fucking work for you! I just wanna get this over and done with, get it? Either you help or you're not part of this anymore. It's as simple as that.

The last bandrelease (we're gonna help with anyway) is finally over and done with. It's gonna be sent out tomorrow morning, but we (me and Martin) finished it yesterday. Go us! Now it's just the essay and the oral presentation (god help us). Nah we should be alright.. once we start doing it.

Speechless

You've got something over me
Right now it's all a mystery
This things taken over you see
No matter what I do
I'm speechless over you
It don't make any sense at all
But I'm here to always take the fall
Baby...here's the proof
No matter what you do
I'm speechless over you


Party last night. The night started out a bit quiet but the more we drank, the more fun we had. I think everyone was pretty drunk when we left for Traversen. Especially my lovely boyfriend (a bit too much to drink maybe? =)) Haha the walk to the pub was an adventure of itself, but it was so much fun! However, once we got there I was the one starting to drink (a bit too much) and Daniel settled with water for the rest of the night. I think I was dancing quite alot with Simon and Fredrik. After a while I had ooze too far up so I gave away my drink and started drinking water too. But it was a while ago since I was really drunk so it was fun!

I'm so tired right now. And I'm working tonight, which should be fun. But still. I'm gonna be dead when I get home, thank god I can relax tomorrow. Combined with studying of course. Shouldn't be too bad though. Once I get started I mean =P
Anyway, shower for the win.
XxxX


You try to read me
You try to figure out
You try to breath me,
but you can't blow me out
You try to feel me,
but I'm so out of touch
I wont be falling,
you won't have to pick me up

My nearest and dearest

Cissi - My world stops turning without you


Alexandra - My Bimbolicious!


Malin - Alla vet att underbart är kort.. My little Doll.


Åsa - Bestest sis in the whole wide world!


Anna - More than just Amazing ;)

Marie - Well, what can I say? =) I'm never gonna leave your side.

Friends ask why you're crying
Best friends already have a shovel
ready to bury the loser who made you cry

Thnx for always having that shovel ready <3


The seminare is finally over and done. Thank god!! Dunnow really how it went but I don't care. I'm just as happy that I've survived it! =) Anyway, Annas going home today for her mums birthdayparty. Which leaves me alone here until Tuesday *sigh*. But I have my Daniel (and the rest of my friends of course) so I'll live :) We're gonna watch the second Pirates movie tonight (so we can go to the cinema and watch the third one).
Oh and I got my new keyboard yesterday. For some reason I got a new mouse as well, so now I have a spare one :) Hmm.. a song maybe? I'm gonna look for a perfect song to put down here. Today it WILL be a Westlife song. I'm in such a Westlife mood now, I so wanna see them soon again. Bring on the 2008 tour! (nu helst!)
Oh and we (my lovely team=the best team) worked at the pub last night. The funniest thing ever. I think it was a long time ago since I had that much fun =) I needed that.


I've had enough of not believing
Living life without a meaning
I want something real that I'm feeling when I'm next to you
Lets build a house of love and devotion
A window to my hearts emotion
Until the very end it's the place I'm gonna keep you in

Oooh, I'm almost awake now. I'm so tired. Will probably sleep soon cos I won't be able to stay awake for much longer. I don't know anymore. Gaaaah. Take me away!


So much confusion
Circling inside my head
What this one and that one said
It's all an illusion cause I'm still the same person
No matter how fast I run
And I'm trying to hold on to where it is I've come from


Sorry you feel that way, I wish I could do something about it. But all I can be is myself.. And if that's not good enough for you, then.. there's not much I can do. Sorry.


Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand

Now it's just too late and
We can't go back I'm sorry
I can't be perfect


However, life is brilliant apart from this shit. I love all my friends that are still there for me =)


Daniel, Anna, Cissi, Marie, Ztanz, Wii, Läcki, Malin, Emma.. Love you all <3

I wanna hold you
Until the fear in me subsides

Sooo.. today has been one of these relaxing days. Wasn't meant to be though =P Stayed over at Daniels so I had to get up kinda early today so I had time to go home before going to school. The MMM lesson was fun. But I was so tired! My own fault.. hehe, I could have gone home early last night.. but I didn't ;) So anyways.. I don't have that much to write, honestly. Right now I'm just listening to music and think about doing something. It feels kinda good now, with school I mean. Just a few weeks left now =) But then it's summer holiday and I've still got no clue what I'm gonna do. Fuckin hell! My luck huh? Ah well. I guess the people at home will be happy that I probs will be there most of the summer.

Under my feelings under my skin
Under the thoughts from within
Learning the subtext of the mind
See creation how we're defined

My Darling, who knew?

Phösarsittning, well it wasn't as good as I hoped it'd be. But I don't for one second regret going there. I still had fun. Especially when we, in the middle of the night (early morning), decided to play footie on this fake grass footballpitch. Most of the skellhell people were there and it was so much fun! I think I fell over a couple of times and got those small black rubber thingies stuck in my fluff =P But who cares. It's okey as long as you have fun, right? =) Haha! So anyways, got home like 2 hours ago. And I'm really tired, early night tonight.

Someone told me that true friends never leave your side (thank you!), so how come you did? The more I think about it, the more confused I get. It does hurt me you know, the way you don't care anymore. If anything ever happened to you, I'd be on the first plane home and you know that! I made that promise before I left and you know as well as I do that I don't break promises. Especially not after everything we've been through.. I guess you just don't value our friendship and much as I do. Your loss?

Cissi, why did they get lives? Why are we the only ones stuck in the same freaking place? When did everything get to serious? =( Thanks for still being yourself. Much appreciated.

I've got nothing more "fun" to write this time. Over and out..

It was so nice to sleep. I think I slept until Anna went to work. But then for some reason I fell asleep again after waking up. Lovely.
Phösarsittning today. It's gonna be so much fun. I just hope I won't be disappointed. Don't think I'll though. But anyway.
Had a nice talk yesterday. Felt good :)



The things we did, the things we said
Keep comin' back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you

I walk along these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the praise you showed
Will always give me strength and be my corner stone


For the first time it's not you who can heal me..

The suckiness of it all

Just imagine the keyboard to your computer breaking down in the middle of you writing something. Can it get worse? Yes it can! You eventually realize that it's not just the battery, it's actually broken. *sigh* You ring the support number (of course you are a regular customer) *sigh again* They tell you that the keyboard is broken (like you haven't noticed already) and they tell you that they will send a new one. *yay* It could take up to 10 working days. *shit* You realize that you have all the project works on your computer and this is really bad. what do you do? ohyeah, you and your puppy eyes ask your amazingly nice friend Ztanz if you could borrow a keyboard from him. And yeah you can. Otherwise I wouldn't be writing this now. It's all great timing here.. I just don't know anymore.

However, me and Anna went to Traversen today. It was completely dead and I almost fell asleep. Especially since I was cuddling up to Daniel. It kinda makes you comfortable and not in a dancing around mood =)

It's the third time now. Third times a charm, isn't it? I sure hope it is anyway. I can't take being burned another time. Somehow I know it's different this time..

I'm so tired right now.. but it would be no point going to bed. I can't sleep anyway. I sometimes can't fall asleep for some weird unknown reason. I guess I just think and worry too much *sigh* Why me?


Baby, I'm the worrying kind

Why should I feel bad? You're the one who stopped talking to me. Where have you gone anyways? I'm not the one to desert friends, but you disappeared on me. Ah well. Nothing lasts forever I guess.

Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

And then I kiss your eyes

And thank God we're together

I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever

Forever and ever

That song brings back so many good memories. I'll never forget me and Sheena singing it on Nicko's 21st. Sharing a mic to the karaoke machine at 5 in the morning.. after having one too many drinks. (I was still hungover when I went to bed the following day)

Wow, that really was a long time ago. October 2005. Loads of things has happened..

I moved away from Dublin, leaving everything there behind (almost)

Sheena and Nicko broke up (he is so better off without her)

I don't have the same bf anymore (again, nothing lasts forever)

I finally took Alans advise and got over Derek (a bit too late), saving myself from yet another heartbreak. I know now it wasn't worth it (everyone does stupid things)

Don't know how many gf's Derek has had since then. But they tend to change quite often (sigh)

Nicko is not my future husband anymore =P Haha. (I wanna divorce =P)

Ah well, the past is gone and the future is yet to come.

And I swear it all over again..

Only for you <3

Today has been one of those days. Knowing you have to study your ass off as soon as you get up. It makes you wanna stay in bed for hours hoping that the work you have to do will be gone when you do get up, or even better, that it has like a miracle been perfectly done already. It never happens though, so yeah I had to get up anyway. But the day went kinda quick, too quick actually. We didn't realize how long time it would take to write all those shitty things. So tomorrow will be all studying as well. Come to think of it, the rest of this term will be studying. Shit!

Don't know what to write. My head is empty from thinking too much.


I've been waiting patiently for him to come and get it
I wonder if he knows that he can say it and I'm with it
I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning
Catch this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos
If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control

Good Morning Sunshines =)


I'm in a great mood today =D Sooo.. yesterday I worked at Traversen. I was soo tired like, but I survived =) It was nice coming home to my bed though. But I can't say it was boring there. I talked to people I haven't talked to in a while :) Was nice.





Anyway, I think I'm going into town today. Since I haven't done that yet =P Haha. I've been planning on doing that like every day this week. But then I always find better things to do ;)





However, I'm looking forward to the phösarsittning next weekend =D




Allow us? <3 Miss you muchness Darlings..

Wow, It's not raining today. First day in ages =P Right now I'm not doing anything at all. But I've been a good girl =D I've cleaned my room and also cleaned the kitchen (go me!) And yeah well I'm planning on going into town later on and then after that våldgästa Daniel =P Hope he doesn't mind ;) But it's true what he said, there's no point cos he has to open the door for me =P So I guess I should say that I'm planning on visiting him instead =D

However, the cinema yesterday was nice. Good film, really =)

Hm Anna has her two friends here now. And they're gonna terrorise me tonight =D Wahey! I hope they get drunk and start doing stupid things so I can laugh at them =S or maybe not.

Nah I'm gonna have a shower now and get ready for whatever might happen.

XxxX

Back home again. It's so nice being back, even though it's been a day full of stress. I'm delighted that it's all finished now and I pray to god (not really) that it will work out just fine.
I spent most of the evening in a terrible mood, or not a good one anyway. And it didn't really help finding out that apperently it makes people feel bad by seeing me (sorry but it wasn't the best thing to say, even though I know you didn't exactly mean it the way it came out) No harm done, not really. I'm fine now =) I just won scrabble 3 times in a row. 3 times a charm? eh? =)

I was going to find a lovely song to put in here since I'm all loved up but yeah I don't know which one. But still, any Westlife song will do. It's gonna be a Ronan song though when I think about it.
I should sleep, I really shouldn't sit here and do nothing. Or I don't do nothing, but still. I hate to say that tonight I did feel a bit sick. But I really hope that I won't get a cold or whatever. Not now anyways.


That's the way you make me feel
It's better than I've ever known it
Better than it's ever been
I can't seem to control it, no
It's the way you make me feel
Like the sun coming up in the morning
Like holding the world in your hands
In a way I could never imagine
It's the way you make me feel

Me and Cissi went on one of our walks last night =P We didn't go to our second home though. We'll do that later this summer. Instead we went through the town down to the river and then up through the estate between Johannelund and town and after that back through town and we also stayed and talked next to my traffic lights. Many eh not so very nice photos were taken. No comment about them though.

I don't really have that much to write.. only that I'm going home today and that it's gonna be really nice =) Can't wait to go to the airport and do a bit of people watching =P ah well..

Over and out. XxxX

I'm minding the little puppy again. I was going to my mum like eh now. But they were kinda in a rush so I'm going there tonight instead. Gotta call my stepdad - note to self. Actually I'm calling now or I'll forget about it. Over and done.

The little one is sleeping now, after playing outside. But this time I won't fall asleep like I did before haha. I should go out with him again soon. Anyway, to other stuff.

It's gonna be nice going home again, well yeah, I know it's still a few days left but I miss Skellefteå. Ok, I don't miss the town obviously. I miss all my friends up there (or atleast some of them) And I miss Daniel the most =) But you know that already.

Soo.. nothing new here. I'm gonna find a pic to have on msn. Since I'm gonna be stuck here for a while now. Or stuck is the wrong word to use =P I like it here. My sis is the bestest ever =D

As usual I only write crap here. I've got nothing better to do of course =) Soo.. enough I think.

XxxX

This is my 100th blogpost :P (interesting?!) Anyway, I'm at home now :) I really wish I could be in 2 places at once.

Hm this won't be a post where I write all those depressing things like missing people (even though I do) Nah I'm gonna write about nice things.

For example, had a very nice conversation yesterday evening/night :) I miss you.

I'm at my sisters now and I have one sleeping sis, 2 sleeping cats and 1 sleeping puppy here to entertain me =P Wow.. I'm so bored right now. Guess that's why I'm writing in my blog. Well of course I wanna update you all two or three people reading this, haha.

It's really a shame that I can't see all my friends while I'm here. I keep forgetting that people actually have lives nowadays =P Next time will be better, I promise.

Wohoo, now Daniels sis came online, guess I have someone to talk to =P